somehow i feel like an empty shell today.
i've spent the whole of today walking around aimlessly
hmmm maybe i'm finally turning sane
or maybe it's just the emptiness left behind by the last drum beat during the nationals
the excitement has died down.
not for everyone but for me and a few others
it'll be OBS next week and the whole sec 3 level will be gone
gone to have fun
the type of fun that i like
trekking, canoing, pitching their own tents, etc
and i will be spending the whole time cooped up in the stuffy lecture theatre
listening to some business entrepreneur crap
i tried parachuting, abseiling, rock climbing, bungy jumps, and lots of others
but i guess i'm missing this rounds fun
AH but who cares! i shouldnt get caught up in self pity. cus its stupid =.=
lots of ppl w medical reasons would be there to accompany me. so well!!
treat the top as crap xD i nid ta fill up my blog quick for the 100th post is coming!!!! WHEE~
isit just the nature of the world that we must be hurt once more to forget the previous stab, the previous pain. i don't know but it happens to me. i can only forget a current pain when i'm overwhelmed by another. nats was horrible but good. i let go of the pain i'd felt, but that's cause i felt the presense of another. another worse. and now that it's over, both emotions are filling me up to the rim and i don't know what to do. staring at this dead computer might be the only comfort i ever get. and yet i feel it more when i continue staring...
