had a little fun 2day..bt was a little troubled tho..
hmmm i realise my posts r starting to seem more technical yea?? haha duno larh! who ask me SWEAR never to be emotional here? yea for those who dont noe, i changed my blog at the beginning of this yr..n i swore not to put any emotional things here cus i dowana put anything too personal here(: so if you think dat u can understand me frm here? well i guess you're TOTALLY wrong yea?
i went back to c my old posts lor...apparently i haven actually deleted my posts..HAHA i jus went to read those posts n realise that i was REALLY emotional there. i put in everything that happened and everything that i felt..which is not going to EVER happen again cus i realise doing that is jus so stupid!
it makes me more vulnerable..so yea i'll nvr do that again. hmmm i jus read the post on the scolding mr wong thing? wow i was really scary(: someone tell me im not that scary now?
but i think im getting weird now...someone pls tell me im not weird. seok? u noe me since sec 1...pls tell me im not changing. i duno somehow not putting everything here doesnt seem like wad i'd do..not scolding ppl every second doesnt seem like something i would do either. ppl used to be able to read wads goin on in my mind like they were reading a book. but can they now? i seriously doubt it. yea is this suppose to be gud or bad? duno i tink its gud(:
at least now i wun be so readable (??) well for NOW at least i noe that no one really noes wad im thinking or feeling. n yes i guess dats gud cus dis will reduce the chances of me getting hurt or being betrayed by others..SHEESH I SOUND LIKE A SCIENTIST! wad reduce here reduce there...
bt somehow im really dying to open my mouth to tell someone abt wad im thinking abt at this moment, wad i feel n stuff. bt yea dats all gta stay in my mind. NO WAY m i ever going to open up again. it sucks.
ok well on a brighter side:
2day i saw mr aloy ong! aha MR ALOY ONG!!!!! yes im happy(: me n ruoling poop met him at the canteen during free period larh..den damn funny we crap like siao! den ltr saw him again at the area in front of LT2...den we went crazy AGAIN! haha bt i tink mr ong enjoyed it lor~~ bt he was totally shocked larh. las yr i was the cold, silent, scary (i hope not) ce meh..dis yr i gt crazy n high like jiayi n yulu (not that dats bad luh huh)! haha n i tink mr ong was really shocked larh! he was like "wads wrong w u!!" haha n he SOOOO didnt believe i could get a A1 in LA lor...sian! he was totally shocked when he saw my wild n high side larh can!! haha i tink ruoling had fun watching him stun.
n i heard sth shocking frm seok 2day..explained to her n hpe it would clear up the misunderstandings...bt seriously i felt disappointed. some of u who tot dat way dun noe me well so fine. bt she should noe dat im not like dat...she should..bt she still tot dat way of me. well dats for kping everything to myself n not sharing my feelings larh huh. i felt so pissed but well wadever. no point being pissed over these sort of things. not as if it will clear up even if i explain. i cant stop the tongues wagging so why try??
"you can't please everybody all the time, so instead of trying i said whatever."
haha! im reminded of this song lor! my sis sings it everytime(:
so yea WHATEVER! i decided to be really positive this year. n so far i tink im doing acceptably well(:
YES
COUNT THE NO. OF SMILEY FACES HERE!
haha dat proves dat im now v positive(: see there it is!!
YES IM HIGHLIGHTING THIS BECAUSE MUI MUI WANTS ME TO MENTION HER HERE! SO YEA HERE GOESn well long post 2day! haha one of the longest in time so yea hav fun reading ppl! (:
oh and y do i suddenly start to feel detached when i jus thought that i was at home at last..
