today's really a bad day..i spilled pepsi on my uniform, left my water bottle in the toilet, then broke a bowl which caused hot soup to be spilled all over me. wow how nice right...
well the last straw came just a few minutes ago when i turned on my mp3. the song played was Vitamin C Graduation. to some of you guys, that song might be a very lame song and holds no special meaning for you. but this song was the one that was played during my p6 graduation. i dunno but i felt close to tears when i heard that song just now...i just thought about everything in these past few years. i seem so...different. in pri sch, i arm wrestle w guys, go around whacking them, gossip, play, bowl..i defend my friends and i confronted anyone who made me unhappy. but now...i dunno who i am already...i try to be enthu in class cus my class is quiet...i try to be a good listener when my friends want to share things with me...i try to be a enthu n good senior for my carrot juniors (tho im not sure if i appear to them this way)...
i dunno i just feel that im drowning now. im surrounded by so many people who think that im the person i seem to be, be it a good friend, a crazy n noisy classmate, a crapping over-enthu senior, or anything else. but i guess they are all wrong. the only person who knows me the best is seok yin, n she doesnt even know the full me. sometimes i feel like finding a someone and just break down, to spill everything out, to be the person i truly am, but i guess im just too afraid. afraid of looking weak. n i cant turn to my pri sch friends either, cus none of them are in the same sch as me n none of them understand what happens in my life now...
HAHA well just treat that as a story. i cant turn to anyone so this blog shall be my good friend for now! haha yea time to be HAPPY! trala i have nice juniors n cca mates ~~~
